I am taking control of my life
We have choices- Emotional, mental, physical, geographical and so forth. We are told that what we surround ourselves with is what we will be. This is true in friendships, jobs, and places. I made choice a couple years ago to stop watching the news because when I watch the news it just brings me down. It makes me feel bad about the world that I live in. It only talks about negative activities that are happening. It brings light to people that don’t deserve the attention or publicity that takes place when they make choices that are less than accepting.
Yesterday I made a choice to deactivate facebook. I have allowed the things that get posted on facebook to set the tone for my attitude for far too long. I feel as though I have allowed facebook to tell me how to feel about the likes and comments and response that I get from posts. I am choosing to step away from that.
It’s funny facebook was something I would look at first thing in the morning to get my day started and then again in the afternoon I would go checking it again, yet one more time the last thing I would do at night is scroll through facebook. The reality of this is why allow something to have that big of a hold on me and my life. Why allow what everyone else is doing in the world dictate how I live my life.
Facebook is a great platform when used for the right things, but there are a lot of wrong things happening. Things like people giving publicity to people that don’t deserve it. I started a page a couple months ago “Embrace, Experience, Enjoy- I started this page to only share positive thoughts and ideas. Share things that would hopefully lift people up and I guess I was hoping that by starting this page people would follow suit and want to share and maybe want to join in. I think about 30 of the the over 800 friends that I had on there liked the page. Then it kind of hit me a few weeks ago… I have over 800 friends on here. Hmmmm That’s a big number right- How many of these people talk to me in real life. I start scrolling through my recent phone calls and messages and wouldn’t ya know it was in that range of 3-10. Then I started scrolling through my page and posts and interaction with posts and well most of them had no interaction and the ones that did it was in that range of 2-10 if it was a positive post, but if it was a sad post, or negative post the interaction with that would be so much more in that 20-70 range…
It really hit me yesterday I was about to embark on a mountain hike something that has been on my bucket list for so long…. Guess what I was doing on the drive up – That’s right I was scrolling through facebook checking what everyone else was doing instead of taking in the awesome that I was doing. Later in the day as we completed each activity there I was posting about it on facebook as it happened. AHHH WHY WHY was I doing that! It was last nihgt while in the shower I started thinking about the magnitude of the day and how absolutely AHHHHHHMMMMMMAAAAAZZZZZZZIIIIIIINNNNNNGGGGGGG what I had just done was! I mean I hiked a mountain! Are you kidding me!! Then I got a little sad because I had posted it on facebook and gotten maybe 5-10 engagements from it… and that’s when I said, “yeah, I’m all done with this!” I got out of the shower and made the choice to just deactivate.
I get to live this beautiful life~ I get to go on these absolutely perfect adventures with my family. I want to be a part of it and Embrace it! I want to Experience it completely! I want to Enjoy it without pressure from people that aren’t vested in my life.
I am at a point in my life that confirmation is finally not needed. I will keep my Instagram and continue sharing positive thoughts and ideas and maybe just maybe I will influence one person in a positive way! My goal this year is to be more present! I want to engage with people on a more intimate level, I want to continue making memories and doing life with those that want to do life with me.
We are worth it! We are important even if the like count is low! The life you are living doesn’t need validation! Continue making memories and doing life with the people that choose to do it with you!