Finding my place
Have you ever woke up and felt like you didn’t belong? Have you ever felt like you can’t find a place that you feel absolutely at home? Have you ever felt at home in a place and then left and came back and felt completely lost?
This is my life- I have been struggling finding my place. After moving away and feeling like I was missing “home” or my idea of home, and coming back home and realizing this home isn’t anything like I remember it to be. Then the question in lies where is my place? How can I find my place?
The last few weeks I have struggled with these questions- but the truth is the only area that I feel absolutely at home is when I am with my kids and my husband. There isn’t an actual place that I feel at home. The houses change, the states, the vacations, and the only thing that holds true is that when I am with my family I feel completely at home. Hearing them laugh, watching them explore, feeling there embraces, and just being with them. My favorite thing to do is show my kids new places and meet new people.
I have been struggling lately at feeling like maybe I am more than a “Stay at home mom.” Ahhhhhh what does that even mean? I catch myself saying I am more than a stay at home mom, and it sounds truer than true. The reality is that I am thankful that we as a family have made the choice to be home. I am thankful that we don’t have to worry about where our kids are going to go, I am thankful that I get to experience them on a daily basis. I love that I get to experience this learning journey with our five year old, I love that our teenager gets to come home to a house that isn’t empty. I am thankful.
The reality is that our jobs do not define us! They are just that jobs in whatever capacity that job is however important or non important you feel at your job. At the end of the day it doesn’t define who you are. In the same manner that being a stay at home mom doesn’t define me. We are all people outside of our “job titles”
Do not let your job define you and make you feel less than- Do not allow yourself to get lost in the day to day. Find something that interests you and go after it. Figure out a way to make that a part of your life. Understand that there isn’t really a right or wrong way to do life. I know that what works in our house doesn’t have to work in your house and vice versa. Find something that works for your family and go with it.