Hormones Suck

I will start out by saying, I used to laugh at women when they would say it’s my pregnancy hormones… I always thought seriously just control yourself.  This is my second pregnany, and I was not nice during my first (more like a loner because I just didn’t know what was going on.) I am over all happy with this one and  things are going well, but I sill have these strange emotional melt downs.  Sometimes I believe it might be self sabbotage…. You know when things are really good so you search for things that could be wrong and then somehow misconstrue that in your head… This is somethng that I have to consciously work on. Now, that I am in the third trimester I am finding that I am more emotional and my anxiety is at an all time high. I can’t beleve that labor is right around the corner (this is very scary for me) Well all of us really. I have fears about the whole part of this, I also have fears about after Chandler is here…It has been years since I had a little baby. We are also planning on doing things a littl different than with the other two. Cloth diapers and breast feeding these will both be new experiences for both of us.  Which is good in a way, because we will learn as we go. It’s also scary to be going from 2 kids to 3… for so long it’s been just Jacob and just Ashley, and think we are doing well at balancing the 2 of them, but throwing  a baby in the mix is a little scarry.

I am really looking forward to the day when I can eat without puking 🙂 Sleep on my belly 🙂 The little things… oh and most of all not have all these crazy outlandish hormones running through me.